4 Weeks Down Already!!

Hello all,

After my last blog things kind of went down hill for me. Let me put it in point form for you:
1. I did no cardio all week.
2. I went a little over board with the peanut butter (fat servings) on two occasions.
3. I have worked, again, so much overtime this week that come yesterday I slpet all day!!! That is something I never do!!

On the up side:
1. Other than the 2 peanut butter blowouts I was good with my nutrition.
2. I did all my weights work outs...regardless of how tired I was.
3. My water intake has improved from 1 litre a day to 3!!

On reflection i have realised that emotionally I have been crap!! Cranky, tired, and I guess bored. Not bored with the program but with this town...it can be a little "small minded' if you get my drift.
I just want to get a few things out here so bear with me....

Since my split with my ex husband (3 years ago)I have slowly watched people pull away from me....mainly the girls. Guys generally don't understand or give a toss about the 'workings' of the female mind and I ahve noticed will still say hello in the street, much to their partners annoyance. I also laid low after the split for many reasons: (make it easier for the ex to find his feet, save face and not have to answer those all annoying questions that people feel is within their right to ask.
So as a result I now find myself friendless. You might think I am exaggerating here but other than the boy, I don't see anyone outside of work. HOW FUCKIN UNHEALTHY IS THAT!! Pretty pathetic really but a result of not trusting anyone and saving myself from being hurt. It was great when the family was still here cause I just hung out with them but I have really noticed it since they left...I recon this could do with the reason why I spend so much time at work and will stay on and send others home if our day goes longer.
The boy is a hard worker and catches up with 'the boys' after work for a few beers. i have been with him a few times in the past and tried to strike up conversations with some of the girls, if they are there. That can be ok unitl you see them in the shops, say hello and all you get is the cool stare....do you get my drift?
Why am I telling you all this? I don't know really...maybe it will help me in a sense, how , I don't quite know. But I guess I have been feeling a little sorry for myself and just want to get over it and get on with it.

Just a few thigns I had to get off my chest.
Peace out everyone
Ange